// I've Been Searching //
A POEM by MANDY x ROELS
It feels like I've been searching
for the right one for far too long
when You've been waiting to bring me to him all along
But I've gone astray somewhere along the way
walking further + further away
all while still so eagerly waiting for that day
to finally fulfil that dream
you placed on my heart from the start
but I went about it all wrong.
Here, all I had to do was fervently seek You.
Yet it's been so up + down
one day knowing that I need to choose only You.
Then so quickly falling in the same trap that I always do.
Deep down I have trusted you all the way through,
where I went wrong was trusting them too.
I shoulda protected my heart like You told me to.
I learned the hard way that not all people are good.
Just because they say they love you
doesn't mean they will take care of you the way they should.
You think I would have learned the first time around,
but now look at all I've endured.
I learned more about myself that I ever thought I could.
I know it all worked out for the great good
but I never want to feel my heart crushed
by the weight of that pain ever again.
I'm looking forward to the day
where my real love story begins